Life Lost / Life Found

People have certain aspects of life that over time become “the norm”. As kids, we go to school, play with friends, ride bikes, and just have fun. As adults, we go to work, manage our homes, help our kids with schoolwork and hopefully find time and energy to have a little fun too. Chronic pain…

Stumbling Into Healing

Today is the last day of this visit and I have pretty mixed emotions. I am so missing home - my kids and grands. But the people who have cared so lovingly for me these last 3 weeks will be deeply missed. Of all the people I’ve met here at the Biologix Center (formerly Hansa),…

Truth VS Positivity

I recently wrote about Optimistic Realism, being hopeful for good things but honest with yourself about the challenges that currently exist. Being optimistic and having a positive attitude are not the same thing. They can work together, but they are inherently different. Optimism looks to the future for a positive outcome. A positive attitude gives…

I Hope You Dance

"And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music." ~Friedrich Nietsche At one point, I had 135 symptoms related to Lyme and tick diseases that I've talk about with medical doctors who both treat disease and try to ease the symptoms. I’ve realized there are…

I Can Do It All By Myself

When I was 2 years old, we had a fish tank. A mama fish had given birth and my parents put the babies in a small bottle inside the tank to separate them from the bigger fish (so they wouldn’t get eaten). My parents were having a “discussion” in the kitchen one day. I wanted…

Optimistic Realism

Urban Dictionary defines an optimistic realist as “Someone who is able to look at the positive side of life while maintaining a realistic viewpoint. People sometimes confuse my realist outlook for pessimism because I always want to understand the worst case scenario. That doesn’t mean I am resigned to accepting the bad. It means I…

Biologix- Week 2

Yesterday completed 2 weeks at Biologix. I am improving so much and am excited to have the opportunity to add a third week to our stay. Pain Prior to coming here, I was on a high dose Butrans pain patch, Lyrica for numbness, and oxy or Norco for breakthrough pain. I am currently off all…

Death By Bad Conversation

In the Netflix television show The Crown, Queen Elizabeth’s Grandmother is ill and expected to die. The Queen goes to visit her and Queen Mary (the grandmother) says “I’m always happy to see you, and my mood will improve further if you promise me....not to ask me how I am. It’s all anyone ever does…

Lyme is a 4 Letter Word

I was sick for 8 years before being diagnosed with Lyme and other tick borne infections. During that time, I suffered a multitude of symptoms of constantly changing severity. Despite my belief that it was a rare and easily curable disease, I had several close friends who had Lyme - and who were adamant that…

Evasive Sleep

It's 1:30 am and I am laying here awake, longing for sleep. In the past 3 months, I've gotten maybe a handful of nights where I actually slept straight through more than a few hours. I've tried various meds, tinctures and remedies, BioMat to promote sleep, delta waves and sounds of the ocean - they…