In the last 2 months, I’ve not had 5 full nights sleep.  Most nights I lay awake until 2 or 3 AM and sleep only a few  hours at a time.

You change when you stop sleeping.  You don’t think clearly.  Your body doesn’t have the rest it needs to be able to regenerate so your muscles and immune system become weak.  Everything is just harder. 

Lack of sleep decreases pain tolerance. So the pains that used to be somewhat manageable become unbearable.  You can’t tolerate stress.  Emotions start to drive every minute of the day. 

I’ve laid in bed quite a few times in the middle of the night sobbing in despair and frustration.  There is no way to describe how exhausting it is to be this exhausted.  

This is not new.  I’ve had bouts of insomnia most of my adult life.  There was a time when I would just get up…if I was going to be awake, I might as well get something done.  I’ve done laundry, dishes, worked on reports or spreadsheets or schedules.  I even did some gardening one night when the moon was full.  

If you happen to be awake in the middle of the night and stumble across this post, I pray God quiets your mind and body and brings you sleep, restoration and rejuvenation. 

Sleep well dear hearts.