One of the hardest things I’ve had to adjust to as a chronically ill person is balancing the various worlds I live in.

I live in 7 worlds. Occasionally two or three of these worlds harmoniously overlap, but more often than not, these distinct worlds live in extreme competition with each other.

1.) Faith in, and relationship with, God
2.) Immediate Family – my husband and children
3.) House and home
4.) Extended family & friendship
5.) Church (this is about people, not the building or religion)
6.) External people and places (acquaintances, strangers, stores, etc)
7.) Illness & treatment

I used to pride myself in balancing the first 6 worlds, until the 7th discovered it could disrupt the balance of each and every other world just by showing up.

I’ve been sick a long time – 13 years. But I’m still learning how hard it is to hold onto the other worlds from which I used to transition into so easily.

It’s like learning to live with an enemy by my side night and day, constantly sabotaging everything I do, constantly hurting everyone I in my life, constantly pulling away from the comfort and balance of the 6 worlds I’ve known so long.

But here’s the thing – if it wasn’t for the other 6 worlds, #7 would have swallowed me whole long ago. Those worlds give me the will to fight, day after day, battle after battle. “Here Comes The Comeback”

THE COMEBACK – Danny Gokey