There are a lot of great treatment protocols and therapies that I truly believe can and will help: rife, sauna, ionic foot bath, vibration platform, as well as antibiotics and natural remedies.

As much as I believe all of these things can make a difference, there are 3 things to understand about therapies and treatment protocols:

1. What works for one person may not work for another – finding the right tools for the individual is a trial and error situation
2. The benefits of any protocol takes time – you’re not likely to see overnight improvement (making step 1 more challenging)
3. These can all cause crashes – meaning you may feel worse before you feel better

My doctor wants me to focus on daily therapies for a while – which I agree is important and needs to be my primary focus.

But here’s the real deal: life gets in the way.

I’m mad and I’m scared about that.

I’ve had some good improvement this last year and a half. I have fewer symptoms and they are generally less extreme. But I still have a long way to go and I am afraid that if I push my body, I will relapse or have a setback (what I call a crash).

We have family coming next week, followed by a series of birthdays and holidays. There is much to be done (planning, cleaning, cooking, shopping) and I already can’t do most of it. When I overdo, I crash. When I crash, others have to not only take care of the things I can’t do, but they also have to take care of me and my special needs (food, med/remedy and treatment management, personal hygiene help).

So I’m putting off stirring things up that may cause a crash. Maybe a few weeks, maybe a few months.

And I’m mad about that.

I’m not mad at anyone. I’m just mad.

I want to get better. I really do. But I ‘m also afraid to be hopeful because I’ve been treating Lyme+ for nearly 10 years and I’m still sick.

There have been times where I improved so much that I thought I was going to get well only to have something cause me to crash so horrifically that I end up back in bed, unable to care for myself and thinking I might die.

So yeah, I’m mad. And I’m scared.

And it’s ok to have a pity party, just don’t unpack and life there.

Take time to be mad, to be scared – and then get up, and try again.

Because through it all:

God is still God.

God is still good.

To Him be the glory.