One of the most frustrating aspects of this stupid sickness is the inability to think clearly – especially on days when I need it most.

It’s allergy season and I’ve been highly responsive this year – not just the normal sinus pressure, runny nose & itchy eyes – my whole body gets inflamed, my throat gets tight, and I feel even more fatigued and weaker.

The last few days, I’ve had back pain, neck tightness, headaches, stabbing ice pick pain, and numbness & tingling.

I know I have “stuff” for all of this. But my brain can’t connect the dots. There’s remedies and supplements, there’s rife settings, there’s a tens unit and lidocaine patches.

But yeah – I just curl up in a ball because I don’t know what else to do.

It’s infuriating.

Cognitive issues impact so much. This morning I went to the kitchen to empty the dishwasher. I got there, I knew what I was supposed to do, but my brain couldn’t connect the dots on how to make it happen.

So I went outside to water the garden. Yeah that didn’t happen either and I don’t really know why.

I have things I take to help my brain function better – I’m pretty sure I missed a few days. And that’s not always a bad thing, but when inflammation is high, it’s not good.

My husband reminds me to give myself a break. He sees it. He sees me. He wants to fix (don’t do that boys) everything. He wants to make it easier for me. But his concern also makes the cognitive issues real and dang it – I don’t want to see it!

So seriously – if any of this sounds familiar – give yourself a break. Take a step back – take a breath – quiet your mind and your emotions – just get through the day.

For me, it meant taking a bath and watching an intense movie that took my mind off everything for a bit – a reset of sorts.

Whatever it means for you – do it.