I went for my 3 month follow up / re-check at lymestop this week.

Nothing has changed. Still have all the same infections. The LS doctors expectation is that patients should be 50% better (I’m worse – which is not uncommon for me).

He thinks I was reinfected. I’m not convinced. I think treatments simply either don’t work or don’t hold for me.

So now the question is WHY?

After 10 years of treatments that have failed again and again, and reacting poorly to things that have helped others, I have to believe there is something about my body that doesn’t allow treatment to be effective.

The article below (written by my doctor) is about people like me – people who are sensitive to everything and tend to fail a lot of treatments.

Healing the Sensitive Patient: A Gentle Approach to Complex Chronic Illness by Dr. Steven Harris 

This statement is so important and has really been how I’ve taken on this sickness:

“even if you can’t tolerate treatments that work for others or that are considered ‘gentle’ by most standards, there are always options. The key is to keep searching for what works for your unique body and situation.”

There have been many times I’ve thought about just giving up. Why try things that don’t work? Maybe not trying would be less stressful, less difficult.

But doing nothing will never produce anything.

And that’s just not ok.

So I will keep trying. And I will stay vigilant about eating clean and healthy, keeping chemicals and toxins out of my home and body, and work to heal my cells – because I truly believe that’s all critical and the likely key to the why question.

Doc Harris had me do some additional testing recently. I’ve got the results and learning about it while I wait to talk with him. He also has some therapies available that I want to try that seek to align the body and calm the chaos. I’ve done some of it before but I often wonder if the timing wasn’t right (perhaps my body was too toxic at the time?).

I will keep trying – keep researching – and I’ll remind myself again and again and again:

God is still God.

God is still good.

To Him be the glory.