• Evasive Sleep

    It’s 1:30 am and I am laying here awake, longing for sleep. In the past 3 months, I’ve gotten maybe a handful of nights where I actually slept straight through more than a few hours. I’ve tried various meds, tinctures and remedies, BioMat to promote sleep, delta waves and sounds of the ocean – they Read more

  • Lyme is a 4 Letter Word

    I was sick for 8 years before being diagnosed with Lyme and other tick borne infections. During that time, I suffered a multitude of symptoms of constantly changing severity. Despite my belief that it was a rare and easily curable disease, I had several close friends who had Lyme – and who were adamant that Read more

  • Death By Bad Conversation

    In the Netflix television show The Crown, Queen Elizabeth’s Grandmother is ill and expected to die. The Queen goes to visit her and Queen Mary (the grandmother) says “I’m always happy to see you, and my mood will improve further if you promise me….not to ask me how I am. It’s all anyone ever does Read more

  • Biologix- Week 2

    Yesterday completed 2 weeks at Biologix. I am improving so much and am excited to have the opportunity to add a third week to our stay. Pain Prior to coming here, I was on a high dose Butrans pain patch, Lyrica for numbness, and oxy or Norco for breakthrough pain. I am currently off all Read more

  • Optimistic Realism

    Urban Dictionary defines an optimistic realist as “Someone who is able to look at the positive side of life while maintaining a realistic viewpoint. People sometimes confuse my realist outlook for pessimism because I always want to understand the worst case scenario. That doesn’t mean I am resigned to accepting the bad. It means I Read more

  • I Can Do It All By Myself

    When I was 2 years old, we had a fish tank. A mama fish had given birth and my parents put the babies in a small bottle inside the tank to separate them from the bigger fish (so they wouldn’t get eaten). My parents were having a “discussion” in the kitchen one day. I wanted Read more