• Who Are You?

    I was reminded yesterday (by a friend who in the moment seemed to know me better than I knew myself) that I am an adventurer. Even being sick, my heart longs for seeking out new places and experiences. I love to hike and kayak and wander down trails. Adventure is ingrained in my soul – Read more

  • The Season

    I often laugh at some of the things Peter said to Jesus. He was always sticking his foot in his mouth. He was rebuked for his words on several occasions and it’s a little comforting to me that he was so foolish (mostly because I can relate to him). But think about it for a Read more

  • Deke’s poem – 11.22.63

    We did not ask for this room or this music; we were invited in.  Therefore, because the dark surrounds us Let us turn our faces toward the light.  Let us endure hardship to be grateful for plenty.  We have been given pain to be astounded by joy.  We have been given life to deny death.  Read more

  • Keep breathing

    Cast away is one of my favorite movies and even though there is an obvious connection to sickness leaving me stranded on an island in the middle of nowhere with power over nothing, it still moves me to stay alive, keep breathing, against all hope and logic. I don’t want to die – but sometimes Read more

  • Who Are You?

    Who Are You? Chronic sickness steals so much of what we do that we can feel like we lose who we are. Who am I if I can’t work? Who am I if I can’t clean my house or drive myself to the store? Who am I if I can’t hike or kayak or play Read more

  • I’m Back – In The Saddle Again

    Or rather, back in Kansas again! I am at Biologix in Wichita for another week of treatment. There are a lot of mixed emotions this trip. For one, the center is moving to Tennessee and this is the last week they’ll be open in Wichita. This is a good move for the center as well Read more