Life Lost / Life Found

People have certain aspects of life that over time become “the norm”. As kids, we go to school, play with friends, ride bikes, and just have fun. As adults, we go to work, manage our homes, help our kids with schoolwork and hopefully find time and energy to have a little fun too. Chronic pain…

Stumbling Into Healing

Today is the last day of this visit and I have pretty mixed emotions. I am so missing home - my kids and grands. But the people who have cared so lovingly for me these last 3 weeks will be deeply missed. Of all the people I’ve met here at the Biologix Center (formerly Hansa),…

Truth VS Positivity

I recently wrote about Optimistic Realism, being hopeful for good things but honest with yourself about the challenges that currently exist. Being optimistic and having a positive attitude are not the same thing. They can work together, but they are inherently different. Optimism looks to the future for a positive outcome. A positive attitude gives…

Optimistic Realism

Urban Dictionary defines an optimistic realist as “Someone who is able to look at the positive side of life while maintaining a realistic viewpoint. People sometimes confuse my realist outlook for pessimism because I always want to understand the worst case scenario. That doesn’t mean I am resigned to accepting the bad. It means I…

Death By Bad Conversation

In the Netflix television show The Crown, Queen Elizabeth’s Grandmother is ill and expected to die. The Queen goes to visit her and Queen Mary (the grandmother) says “I’m always happy to see you, and my mood will improve further if you promise me....not to ask me how I am. It’s all anyone ever does…

Lyme is a 4 Letter Word

I was sick for 8 years before being diagnosed with Lyme and other tick borne infections. During that time, I suffered a multitude of symptoms of constantly changing severity. Despite my belief that it was a rare and easily curable disease, I had several close friends who had Lyme - and who were adamant that…

Evasive Sleep

It's 1:30 am and I am laying here awake, longing for sleep. In the past 3 months, I've gotten maybe a handful of nights where I actually slept straight through more than a few hours. I've tried various meds, tinctures and remedies, BioMat to promote sleep, delta waves and sounds of the ocean - they…

Take Captive Every Thought

Someday, I’m gonna wake up without pain, without nausea, without fatigue. My head won’t hurt, my feet won’t burn, my skin won’t crawl. These are the thoughts I have to have to keep hope. Someday. It often feels like someday may never come. Sometimes it’s hard to remember what feeling well feels like - making…

Fear Is A Liar

We all start out thinking this is temporary. We believe some doctor or potion will eventually get us back to the state of normalcy to which we have become accustomed. So when does that change? At what point during sickness do we shift to the mindset that it may not happen. And what causes that…

Thankful Grateful Fed

Saying grace before meals is a common practice among most Christians. There are a lot of reasons we do this - glorifying God by acknowledging his gift of provision is usually the big one. But did you know God has a more individual, physical reason for saying grace? That’s right - you heard me -…