You’re Beautiful…

God has been dropping bits of encouragement on my life today - it's been more of an "in your face" kind of message that the fight is not over yet (FK&C). If you are feeling defeated right now, if your pain is too much to bear, if like me you are feeling fat and ugly…

Never Surrender Your Own Judgement

I participate in several forums focused on specific health conditions. I initially joined them in the hopes of learning more about some of the conditions I have. What I’ve found is that most of the people participating are in the early stages of some sort of sickness - or at a minimum, they haven’t yet…

Stress & Anxiety

Stress Medlineplus says “Stress is your body's reaction to a challenge or demand.” These reactions can come in the form of a physical, emotional or mental issues. Financial challenges, relationship troubles, a car crash, the loss of a job - there’s tons of short term factors that can trigger a stress response. When your body…

Stress and Chronic Complex Illness

Monday night I participated in a meeting to discuss some issues affecting our community. Because of the seriousness of these issues and my tenacious and overly passionate personality, the whole thing was highly stressful for me. Stress is bad for the body - we know this. But it’s particularly bad for people with chronic complex…

Drowning

This represents so clearly how many Lyme patients feel when they are dismissed by doctor after doctor after doctor. I don’t know the exact number of doctors I’ve seen over the years but it’s well over 30...maybe 40 or 50. Many have told me that I’m not sick because my labs are normal. It took…

20 Seconds of Insane Courage

“You know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it.”Benjamin Mee, We Bought a Zoo I’m stepping out in faith right now trusting that God will move mountains in my community. This wildfire is spreading…

The Teeter Totter

Yesterday was a decent day, in spite of the overwhelming chaos - maybe it was just the adrenaline, I don’t know, but I was up a good portion of the day and I wasn’t in horrible pain, so I’ll call that a win. Today I woke up with lots of pain, extreme fatigue and just…

Are You Not Feeling Well?

A few days ago, someone asked me “are you not feeling well?” My response was bitter and critical - and I haven’t stopped thinking about it. This is not an uncommon question - but sometimes it catches me off guard and I’m pretty sure my response can be a little curt. It is not their…

I Hate Losing

“I hate losing even more than I like winning. And there’s a difference.” Billy Beane Moneyball There IS a difference! I’ve been seeing a naturopath who has slowly been getting me out of bed and able to do a little here and there. The last few days have been very noticeable. It’s exciting. It’s encouraging.…

Thrive – Switchfoot

Let's be honest - if you have a chronic sickness, this song is how you probably feel most of the time. There's power in being able to admit "I'm not alright". Click Here - Video: Thrive by Switchfoot Lyrics: Been fighting things that I can't see it Like voices coming from the inside of me…